Since September commenced, it’s been such a hectic time. I only have the two children (a freshman in high school and a sixlet in middle school), but the escalation in back-to-school to-dos and events has maxed out my schedule and tapped out my energy. It seems to be the rule for me, though, that the more fast-paced things become, the more crucial it is that I find a time to be still. This is when God can refocus me, refuel me, and reclaim me….and without it, peace is thin and worn, and joy seems to disappear.
One way of finding a still moment, is through quiet contemplative journaling. A quick painting or craft project can also cause my mind to get in a meditative place, something I explain further in both Faith Books & Spiritual Journaling, and my upcoming title, Art Journals and Creative Healing. Often, I can find a stillness of heart when I’m creating…sometimes I can also find a stillness of heart when I’m doing just a simple household task such as doing dishes … and sometimes I can find a stillness of heart in the space of my car, after I’ve dropped the kids off to school. 
But truly there are times that I crave to even more stillness than that….perfectly still… devoid of movement…and absolutely silent…devoid of noise. This is coming from someone who loves some sort of soundtrack playing in the in background of my life. I am a lover-of-music and am married to a very expressive maker-of-music (quite a convenient arrangement I might add)! But even so, the real “be still times" require me to shut off the soundtrack…my beloved iTunes must go to mute. For many, this stillness and silence feels entirely unnatural and at first feels like a some sort of monastic discipline (just as other practices like journaling or yoga are, let’s say) but honestly, being bathed in silence and released of my to-do list, even if for 10-20 minutes is more like a spa treatment and less like a discipline. In that space, I’m freed from worry. In those moments, there is no demand. Sometimes God speaks to my heart…and well, sometimes He doesn’t. But He’s there, and just knowing that, and reconnecting with my interior helps me to better organize the things taking place in the exterior. (Something my friend, Mindy Caliguire, has taught me much about!)
I celebrated my birthday last week (my 41st if you’re keeping track of those sorts of things) and when I reflect on my thirties, there has been a lot of acheivement, but simultaneously there has been a lot of worry (over my son’s diagnosis, my dad’s illness and passing, my husband’s inner struggles, our finances, my business)… and a lot of demand (much of it self-imposed, some of it charactaristic of being an author and licensing artist, and some of it a pure by-prouduct of living in the OC). And while there has been a lot of satisfaction in the successes of Sonnets Studios, and even more elation over seeing my kids and husband really flourish in a burgeoning way, I must also admit that there have been many times of private turmoil too. (Sort of an inevtibale equation: a lot of worry + a lot of demand = a lot of turmoil )When I look to the next decade, I’m hoping to orchestrate more stillness into my forties. More surrender. More trusting God that HE is taking care of my kids, and my husband and my business, and EVERYTHING. And more of setting my sights on things that exist in agreement with a life that invites stillness.
I think there is poetic grace in that.
I think there is an artful beauty in that.
And I know there is peace in that.
My new math equation: stillness > striving
{The photos from today’s blog post are the peek I promised of our new DEMDACO collection, AS FOR ME. This is from the “Be Still” grouping, and includes the votive candleholder, frame, plaque. There are complimentary vases too…a fun endeavor for Beth and I, as prior to this our designs were always pretty much relegated to flat product. Thinking 3-D was a fun challenge and continues to be, as we are wrapping up our Christmas ornament and taple-top designs for DEMDACO. If you are in So. Cal., I have heard from friends and family that they have the line at the Lighthouse Christian bookstores. I’ll try to share more of the groupings in future blog posts, just for fun!}


















