Upon arriving home from Surtex, I fell into what seems to be my typical post-tradeshow modus operandi:
Day 1 of Return: enjoy the exuberant reception of my family…. bask in the hugs and doting attention of my sweet hubby and kiddos. There really is something to that proverb, “absence makes the heart grow fonder” (mind you, as long as the absence isn’t TOO long!). Talk, giggle, hug, and talk some more. So much catching up to do!
Day 2 of Return: face with undaunted courage the state of the household. Do 5+ loads of laundry and a couple cycles of dirty dishes. Unpack my bags and then clean some more.
Retire those luggage pieces to the garage until next trip (let’s see….that would be next month to Chicago for CHA Summer….they won’t be collecting too much dust).
Day 3 through Day 6 of Return: Completely and utterly succumb to some dreadful virus {in this case a flu with a battery of aches, pains, chills, fever, and horribly sore throat). Stay in bed in a state of misery. (This would be the part of my M.O. that I would like to alter. Veteran travelers must have some answers here…. Airborne? Personal air purifiers to be donned on the plane? (Now there's a fashion statement I'm not sure I can pull off....) Perhaps it is simply the post show exhaustion that lets down the defenses and lowers the immunity. Whatever it is, I hate to be such a vision of malady and malaise on my return as always seems to be the case! After being absent from the family on business, it just seems such a crime that I would virtually continue to have to be absent due to illness!}
Day 7 of Return to Present: Continue to fight the remnants of my virus and fatigue while returning vigorously to the duties I adore: those of mother and those of artist. Follow up on all the wonderful and promising leads from Surtex. Engage in all the school year-end festivities with my son and daughter (open house, spring choir concert, McTeacher night at our local McDonald's....).

These days Creamy Corn and Roasted Pepper Soup, Organic Tomato and Red Pepper Soup (soooo savory and soooo soothing.....from Trader Joe's), and Vitamin Water (big fan of their product...big fan of their wit on the packaging), they are my fuel, and prayer is my other sustainer. While I must get to the tasks that need my attention, both at home and the studio, I feel a heightened need to also find some recuperative time each day for rest (dare I say, a moderate midday nap!), solitude and prayer. Balancing the needs that my family has, the needs that my business has, and the needs that I have (physically, emotionally, spiritually) will always be a never-ending pursuit, but one I continue to want to master better. This passage from Anne Morrow Lindbergh’s Gift from the Sea addresses so articulately much of what I’ve been sensing. Perhaps it will shed some light on some of the roles and tasks you are juggling too:
"With a new awareness, both painful and humorous, I begin to understand why the saints were rarely married women. I am convinced it has nothing inherently to do, as once supposed, with chastity or children. It has to do primarily with distractions. The bearing, rearing, feeding, and educating of children; the running of a house with its thousand details; human relationships with their myriad pulls-- woman’s normal occupations in general run counter to creative life, or contemplative life, or saintly life. The problem is not merely one of Woman and Career, Woman and the Home, Woman and Independence. It is more basically: how to remain whole in the midst of the distractions of life; how to remain balanced, no matter what centrifugal forces tend to pull one off center; how to remain strong, no matter what shocks come in at the periphery and tend to crack the hub of the wheel…
But how? Total retirement is not possible. I cannot shed my responsibilities… I cannot be a nun in the midst of family life. I would not want to be. The solution for me, surely, is neither in total renunciation of the world, nor in total acceptance of it. I must find a balance somewhere, or an alternating rhythm between solitude and communion, between retreat and return…
It is a difficult lesson to learn today- to leave one’s friends and family and deliberately practice the art of solitude for an hour or a day or a week… For me, the break is the most difficult…And yet, once it is done, I find there is a quality to being alone that is incredibly precious. Life rushes back into the void, richer, more vivid and fuller than before."
I don’t know about you, but I really desire that richer, more vivid, fuller experience of life Anne describes. And as Anne suggests, I too find that attaining that only comes from days that are deliberately and regularly interspersed with quiet times with God. Then that full, expressive, poetic life is felt, expressed, and realized. Then the balance returns. Then the health returns. Then the joy returns. Then the creativity returns.